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Besides the emotional trauma of domestic violence, the long-term unhealed wounds are incredibly painful, especially physically. In Japan, awareness of domestic violence is so low that victims are often blamed. But that's a baseless accusation; the deceiver is clearly in the wrong. In rural areas, the male-dominated mindset persists, and I find it incredibly old-fashioned and self-centered. It simply doesn't suit me. What I wanted to convey today is the importance of physical care. When I went to the hospital, I was told I was on the verge of developing endometriosis. I'm currently taking birth control pills, but the thought that I might not be able to have children is incredibly painful. Research at a Japanese university has shown that eating fish can alter lipid metabolism and reduce endometrial inflammation, so I'm changing my diet to try and change my constitution. Psychologically, I'm beginning to accept that it's okay to draw a clear line and acknowledge that the controlling person is in the wrong. Domestic violence is an extremely painful experience; it's not just a simple relationship problem, but a crime. I feel like I can somehow get through this by protecting and taking care of myself. Also, controlling people's psychology

I know my experience with domestic violence is a little different from the sudden, unexpected violence you may have experienced, but please allow me to share my story. When I was four years old, my father touched my bottom, and from that moment on, I felt a strong sense of unease. I began to believe that I was only seen as a sexual object. Even after that, whenever I dated someone, they were often only interested in a physical relationship. I became physically and mentally exhausted, my work suffered, and I developed depression. Even when I went to the hospital, because it wasn't direct domestic violence, I wasn't given any treatment, and I went back to work without recovering. At that workplace, I was sexually harassed by a male superior. Despite being married, he lied about his marriage being broken and persistently tried to manipulate me. Because of my past experiences, I was still under the impression that I was only seen as a sexual object, and I ended up having a sexual relationship with him. Midway through, I realized that his marriage wasn't broken, so I left and quit my job. However, when we broke up, he hit me so hard that my glasses flew off. I truly despise the heartless, self-centered men out there. After that, I was baptized into the Catholic Church, which allowed me to escape sexual harassment, but I'm still terrified of dating men, and I haven't been able to get married.

For several years, starting in the lower grades of elementary school, I was sexually abused by my older sister, who was two years older than me. My relationship with this sister was as bad as that of Oasis and Green Day. More than what happened to me, the fact that she targeted me, of all people, is what has traumatized me.

You are not alone. Sharing our experiences can be a powerful step towards healing. No matter how difficult it gets, remember that there is hope and support out there. Stay strong and take one day at a time.

I'm a middle-aged woman with complex PTSD who I previously consulted with. (I've experienced abuse, religious abuse, isolation at school, power harassment, and sexual abuse.) I've spoken to my doctor about my sexual trauma. I've been suffering from severe hypervigilance and depression for some time, and have experienced hyperventilation and difficulty speaking three times during counseling sessions. When I spoke to my doctor, I was experiencing hyperventilation, body tremors, dissociative tendencies, dizziness, and barely able to speak. I'm feeling unwell, and even if I feel fine during the day, I get tired within a couple of hours. Even after resting and feeling better, I get tired in the evening and night, sometimes feeling energized and sometimes feeling anxious at night. Even when I take a day off from work, I get exhausted within four or five hours. I've taken a leave of absence and increased my medication, which has made it much easier to sleep. However, even with the maximum dose, I find it difficult to get into a sleeping position due to anxiety, and I sometimes wake up at 2 a.m. because I can't sleep due to anxiety and tears. Even though I'm calming my body and mind, I'm still suffering, wanting to die, and feeling hopeless, wondering how long this will last. I'm feeling depressed, thinking that this will be a long-term battle, perhaps even years, and that the effects of various traumas are so great that it must be quite serious.