I was coerced into sexting with a boy I knew in my freshman year of high school. I was 17 (a few months before me posting this, I'm 18 as of this past November!), and I did a lot of things I shouldn't have. My boyfriend at the time was very emotionally abusive, and I honestly wanted out so bad. But I was so convinced that he was still a good person, that I was scared to break his heart. I reconnected with an old friend from my old school that I went to a few years back - It was really nice talking to him at first, and I trusted him when I told him about some woes in my writing endeavors (I quite enjoy writing!), including the fact that I was bored and I didn't have any friends willing to write something more inappropriate with me. He told me "Maybe he could write with me", and at first I was excited! I wanted to take some big steps with my writing, so it sounded fun. But little by little as I set my boundaries, he starts trying to persuade me that they can be set aside. I told him I had a boyfriend, and as rough as things were, it didn't feel right. He told me it was okay. My boyfriend wouldn't know! It's not real anyways, why was I so worried? And I fell for it. It went from texts to pictures to him wanting to call - It wasn't even writing when we started like what I originally wanted, just straight sexting. And even on nights I didn't want to because I was tired or stressed, he told me I should. And I did. While I was dating someone. All of it was so wrong, but he had me convinced I would be just fine. Because I felt great and no one had to know. He called me "Hot", he called me "Cutie", and when it all happened he called me more names that I adored. And I starting forming a crush on him all based on the fact that I thought this was okay and that maybe he liked me back if he was asking me to do all this. By the end of it, I made it out of my toxic relationship, we continued our ritual, and he admitted he didn't think anything of me. I feel awful, I feel embarrassed, and every time I think about it, I want to tear all my skin off for doing it, period. After everything I knew about the consequences of sexting, while I was dating someone, and for being so foolish and letting him put my guard down. I feel used and objectified, and I feel so stupid. I spend everyday blaming myself.