A Broken Trust He was someone I thought I could trust—a friend who made me laugh, someone I was starting to like. When he invited me out that evening, I didn’t sense the storm ahead. Car troubles forced us to change plans, and instead of heading out, we stayed in. It felt comfortable at first, sitting together, sharing drinks, and laughing about life. We kissed a little—it was lighthearted, a step toward something new. But that was as far as I wanted to go. I wasn’t sure if something had been slipped into my drink. I hadn’t had much, yet I felt strange, like my body wasn’t my own. I told him I needed to lay down, just for a moment, to collect myself. I must have dozed off, but when I opened my eyes, everything changed. He was there, naked, on top of me, kissing me. My body froze as fear took over. I begged him to stop with the voice I could manage, but it didn’t matter. He didn’t stop. He stripped me of my clothes, my power, and my voice, ignoring every plea. The pain was searing, my body rejecting him in every way it could, but he didn’t care. He pushed on, each thrust a betrayal, each moment an erasure of who I was before that night. I cried beneath him, and when he finished, he looked me in the eyes—cold, unfeeling—as if what he’d done was nothing at all. I wanted to leave, to escape the horror of that room, but he wouldn’t even give me my clothes. Humiliated and broken, I sat there, trembling and sick to my stomach. Questions flooded my mind: What if I get pregnant? What if he gave me an STD? I’d barely begun to understand my own feelings about sex, and now they were shattered. When I tried to confront him later, hoping for some clarity, his response was a second betrayal. “You consented,” he said casually, as though rewriting the truth. His half-hearted apology meant nothing. It wasn’t enough, and it would never be enough. Years passed, but the memory of that night stayed with me, haunting me in ways I couldn’t explain. I felt trapped in a cycle of pain and anger, desperate for control over something that had taken so much from me. I thought meeting him again, facing him on my terms, might give me closure. Maybe if I reenacted that night, this time with me in control, the wound would start to heal. But even in that plan, I knew I was trying to make sense of something senseless. No action could undo what he had done. No reenactment could erase the trauma he inflicted or give me back the person I was before.