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story of a broken college student

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you are not alone. you do not need to feel ashamed. this is not your fault. coping looks different for everyone, you can talk as much or as little about your experience as you feel comfortable with. something i wish i had heard earlier in my healing process is just because you didnt report it or recognize what was happening in the moment does not make it any less valid or real. you will get through this 💗

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healing means learning how to love and be loved again, learning how to trust, learning to respect myself. part of healing for me was forming a healthier relationship with sex. it took me a while to be able to say no again and to recognize that i could. coming from a situation where i said no and was ignored so frequently, shamed for it, i had let go of all boundaries out of fear. healing was finding healthy boundaries and having sex for pleasure and not out of fear.

when i was 17 years old, i was dating a man who forced me to have sex regularly. at the time, i did not think it was possible that this was rape. he was my bf, how could that be possible. with time he became more aggressive and forceful. if i complained he would reassure me “i’ll be quick”. several times a week i would silently sob as i waited to be done. this process made me believe the only thing i was useful for was my body, which no longer felt like my own. a few months after ending things with him, i was drugged at a party and woke up with no pants on and an unfamiliar man in my bed. the last thing i remember was telling my roommate this man was making me uncomfortable. it took me a very long time to accept that i will never know what happened that night, to stop blaming myself, and to feel comfortable in my own body again. the self-blame is the worst thing about trying to heal. i constantly think “well if i had just fought back” or “maybe if i recognized it was rape in the moment” or “maybe if i hadn’t drank i wouldn’t have been drugged” or “maybe if i wasn’t so nice he wouldn’t have taken it as flirting”. but that’s the thing: the maybe if’s are doing nothing for me. i am alive on the other side of the violence i experienced. learning to silence the voice of self-doubt and self-blame has allowed me to reclaim my body and my life. i will never get to go back to before this happened but i am finding a way to survive with that fact.

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