Learning to find pleasure and real friendship again

I (female) was abused by who I used to call my bestfriend during middle school (11-14 years old). She was a classmate of mine. I want to add that, during the same time, I was bullied by other classmates too, so I think I stayed with her because she was the only one who was apparently interested in me. She started by manipulating me by doing things I didn't want to, such as buying things I was not supposed to, watching things I shouldn't have, eating foods that disgusted me. She then managed to have me dancing in front of her while she was recording me every time getting me to wear less clothes. At some point she even involved another girl in the game (I remember the two of them laughing at me while watching me being naked in a shower). One moment she was humiliating me, the next praisig me and the netx one she was properly sexually abusing me, while calling it a simple "massage". Time passed, it delayed my development a lot. I didn't felt the need/curiosity to explore myself until just by chance I noticed that it was not normal my lack of it (and I was 15 at the time of the realization). This made me fell down into a deep spiral of mee thinking I was asexual, then homosexual and finally bisexual. Even if I was trying to get on board with that I could never find the maximum pleasure. I thought I was broken, that I lacked something... every friendship I had managed to find were either shallow or toxic. My ability to say no, to recognize toxic patterns was impaired. At 19 I finally started to understand what had happened and at 20 I finally managed to experience real pleasure and to feel generally good about myself. I restored my selfconfidence, worked on my ability to connect deeply with people, learned how friendships and relationship should function. It was a long road and it is not finished but, after 2 years of discovering the truth I feel very optimistic about my future.