How do inappropriate or potentially abusive childhood sexual interactions affect both children involved as they grow up? Can the child who initiated unwanted behaviors experience difficult feelings like shame or regret later in life, even if they didn't understand the impact at the time? How do these early experiences affect both children's emotional development?

This is a thoughtful and complex question. Thank you for asking it. Situations like you described can indeed have lasting effects on everyone involved, though these impacts may manifest differently.

For children who initiated unwanted sexual behaviors, the later recognition of their actions can bring overwhelming feelings of shame, guilt, and confusion - especially as they develop a mature understanding of consent and boundaries. Many may struggle with questions like "Why did I do that?" or "Was I a bad person?" It's crucial to understand that children who engage in inappropriate sexual behaviors have often been exposed to sexual concepts inappropriate for their developmental stage, whether through direct experience, exposure to adult content, or other circumstances that confused their understanding of appropriate boundaries.

For those who experienced unwanted behaviors, the impact can include difficulties with trust, boundaries, relationships, and various emotional and physical responses. Their feelings and experiences are valid and may require professional support to process.

Both children may carry these experiences differently as they grow up. Some common responses for either party might include:
- Confusion about their childhood memories
- Difficulty forming healthy relationships
- Shame around sexuality
- Struggles with self-worth
- Anxiety in certain situations
- Problems with trust and boundaries

It's important to note that healing is possible for everyone involved. Many people find that working with a trauma-informed therapist helps them process these early experiences and understand them within the context of their development. This can be especially important when dealing with complex feelings of both victimization and responsibility.

Remember that children cannot fully understand the implications of sexual behaviors, and their actions should be understood within the context of their development and circumstances. This doesn't minimize the impact of these experiences, but rather helps create a framework for understanding and healing.

If you're struggling with these experiences - from either perspective - please know that support is available. We appreciate you reaching out to us.