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Taken Advantage: A Young Man Over His Head
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Message to a Survivor
You are renewed every day of your life.
Message of Healing
Healing means being willing to face those challenging circumstances in your life and coming to terms with it. It means accepting those things you cannot change, finding courage to change the things you can, and learning along the way which is which. It's about sharing your story, connecting with others who have gone through what you've gone through, and loving them as you love yourself.
I was 18. My father brought me to Thailand on vacation, and he was leaving me alone for a few days because our flights weren't aligned. Before he left, he took it upon himself to show me around the red light district. I was embarrassed when he pointed out the places where you could get a blowjob, or a girlfriend for the night. He pointed out the place the ladyboys were, told me to avoid it. I wish I had paid more attention, because when he was gone, and I was on my own that first night, I went to the red light district as I thought my Dad wanted me to. I ended up at that bar where the ladyboys are, sitting alone, drinking a beer, wondering how my night would go. It didn't so much matter how I thought it should go, because I was approached by two ladyboys, who stuck their hands down my pants and began to fondle me. It felt pleasurable, and they looked like women, and my Dad would have been happy I was "getting some", so I went back to the hotel with two of them. I think I was trying to convince myself they were women, because to 18 year old me, that was the dream. To have women come up and want to have sex with me. But once we got up to the room, and the clothes came off, I realized I was deep in a bad situation. I wish I could say the story ended there. That I was able to send them out. But at that time I didn't know the price sex had. I never had sex before, and here was somebody willing to do it with me. Afterwords I felt sick. I felt I owed this person something. When in reality, they got everything they wanted -- a man half their age who was an innocent fool. I had given away my very soul, to somebody who just wanted to use me. I felt sick, and I stayed sick for several days following. I look back on the situation and feel a lot of resentment. Resentment towards my Dad, for bringing me to the red light district. Resentment towards the prostitute, who took advantage of a sad, lonely boy. But all I can do now is forgive. I may never have my virginity back, but at least I'm alive.
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Grounding activity
Find a comfortable place to sit. Gently close your eyes and take a couple of deep breaths - in through your nose (count to 3), out through your mouth (count of 3). Now open your eyes and look around you. Name the following out loud:
5 – things you can see (you can look within the room and out of the window)
4 – things you can feel (what is in front of you that you can touch?)
3 – things you can hear
2 – things you can smell
1 – thing you like about yourself.
Take a deep breath to end.
From where you are sitting, look around for things that have a texture or are nice or interesting to look at.
Hold an object in your hand and bring your full focus to it. Look at where shadows fall on parts of it or maybe where there are shapes that form within the object. Feel how heavy or light it is in your hand and what the surface texture feels like under your fingers (This can also be done with a pet if you have one).
Take a deep breath to end.
Ask yourself the following questions and answer them out loud:
1. Where am I?
2. What day of the week is today?
3. What is today’s date?
4. What is the current month?
5. What is the current year?
6. How old am I?
7. What season is it?
Take a deep breath to end.
Put your right hand palm down on your left shoulder. Put your left hand palm down on your right shoulder. Choose a sentence that will strengthen you. For example: “I am powerful.” Say the sentence out loud first and pat your right hand on your left shoulder, then your left hand on your right shoulder.
Alternate the patting. Do ten pats altogether, five on each side, each time repeating your sentences aloud.
Take a deep breath to end.
Cross your arms in front of you and draw them towards your chest. With your right hand, hold your left upper arm. With your left hand, hold your right upper arm. Squeeze gently, and pull your arms inwards. Hold the squeeze for a little while, finding the right amount of squeeze for you in this moment. Hold the tension and release. Then squeeze for a little while again and release. Stay like that for a moment.
Take a deep breath to end.