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Message to a Survivor
Do not continue to bottle up your feelings. Find someone to talk to. You are never alone and someone is always there to help even when you feel hopeless.
Message of Healing
Finally talking about it openly with a therapist who specializes in abuse helped me heal. They are there to validate you and give you the resources you need to heal and hopefully move on.
I am here after watching Dr. Doe's amazing video on Responding to abuse. I am posting my story in hopes of empowering someone else who might be in a similar situation that I was in. When I was a teenager, I studied with the same music teacher for about 6 years. Throughout that time we grew closer and closer and became what I believed to be really good friends. During high school, I didn't notice it but he tried controlling and having so much influence on me that I couldn't even buy supplies without his approval. As I graduated high school and went off to college to continue my studies, the controlling manipulation only got worse. He tried making me go drinking with him, he tried making me doctor's appointments, he would call my mother when he didn't get what he wanted out of me or couldn't find me. There was one point in which he texted me for hours after I had done something he didn't approve of because he told my other classmates to tell him if I was doing that thing. We once got into an argument over something he should have helped me on, and he came to school complaining that he hadn't slept in days because I made him so angry. I cried nearly every day of my freshman year of college. I once cried for multiple days because I thought there was no way I could get out of this abusive situation. He once told me that "you have a very womanly body" and would often get uncomfortably close to me to the point I couldn't even breathe. Even after I left, I still cried frequently for months because I still believed I loved him. However, after I realized it had been a terribly abusive situation, I went and tried to tell my new teacher who was friend of his. She proceeded to tell me "that just doesn't sound like him" and "he's too nice to do something like that". I then stopped studying with her and finally had a break at my new school, in which my current teacher sat there and took in every thing that happened to me and directed me to the help that I needed because I was dealing with some PTSD. It only takes one person to believe an abuse survivor in order for them to find the help they need. After watching Dr. Doe's video, and going through months of therapy, I feel like I can openly talk about my experience, even though a lot of people still don't believe me. I found someone who did and they helped. I'm now thinking about reporting my abuser because Dr. Doe is right, it's not my fault for reporting him, it's his fault for grooming and abusing me. I did nothing wrong.
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Grounding activity
Find a comfortable place to sit. Gently close your eyes and take a couple of deep breaths - in through your nose (count to 3), out through your mouth (count of 3). Now open your eyes and look around you. Name the following out loud:
5 – things you can see (you can look within the room and out of the window)
4 – things you can feel (what is in front of you that you can touch?)
3 – things you can hear
2 – things you can smell
1 – thing you like about yourself.
Take a deep breath to end.
From where you are sitting, look around for things that have a texture or are nice or interesting to look at.
Hold an object in your hand and bring your full focus to it. Look at where shadows fall on parts of it or maybe where there are shapes that form within the object. Feel how heavy or light it is in your hand and what the surface texture feels like under your fingers (This can also be done with a pet if you have one).
Take a deep breath to end.
Ask yourself the following questions and answer them out loud:
1. Where am I?
2. What day of the week is today?
3. What is today’s date?
4. What is the current month?
5. What is the current year?
6. How old am I?
7. What season is it?
Take a deep breath to end.
Put your right hand palm down on your left shoulder. Put your left hand palm down on your right shoulder. Choose a sentence that will strengthen you. For example: “I am powerful.” Say the sentence out loud first and pat your right hand on your left shoulder, then your left hand on your right shoulder.
Alternate the patting. Do ten pats altogether, five on each side, each time repeating your sentences aloud.
Take a deep breath to end.
Cross your arms in front of you and draw them towards your chest. With your right hand, hold your left upper arm. With your left hand, hold your right upper arm. Squeeze gently, and pull your arms inwards. Hold the squeeze for a little while, finding the right amount of squeeze for you in this moment. Hold the tension and release. Then squeeze for a little while again and release. Stay like that for a moment.
Take a deep breath to end.