#70

I am here after watching Dr. Doe's amazing video on Responding to abuse. I am posting my story in hopes of empowering someone else who might be in a similar situation that I was in. When I was a teenager, I studied with the same music teacher for about 6 years. Throughout that time we grew closer and closer and became what I believed to be really good friends. During high school, I didn't notice it but he tried controlling and having so much influence on me that I couldn't even buy supplies without his approval. As I graduated high school and went off to college to continue my studies, the controlling manipulation only got worse. He tried making me go drinking with him, he tried making me doctor's appointments, he would call my mother when he didn't get what he wanted out of me or couldn't find me. There was one point in which he texted me for hours after I had done something he didn't approve of because he told my other classmates to tell him if I was doing that thing. We once got into an argument over something he should have helped me on, and he came to school complaining that he hadn't slept in days because I made him so angry. I cried nearly every day of my freshman year of college. I once cried for multiple days because I thought there was no way I could get out of this abusive situation. He once told me that "you have a very womanly body" and would often get uncomfortably close to me to the point I couldn't even breathe. Even after I left, I still cried frequently for months because I still believed I loved him. However, after I realized it had been a terribly abusive situation, I went and tried to tell my new teacher who was friend of his. She proceeded to tell me "that just doesn't sound like him" and "he's too nice to do something like that". I then stopped studying with her and finally had a break at my new school, in which my current teacher sat there and took in every thing that happened to me and directed me to the help that I needed because I was dealing with some PTSD. It only takes one person to believe an abuse survivor in order for them to find the help they need. After watching Dr. Doe's video, and going through months of therapy, I feel like I can openly talk about my experience, even though a lot of people still don't believe me. I found someone who did and they helped. I'm now thinking about reporting my abuser because Dr. Doe is right, it's not my fault for reporting him, it's his fault for grooming and abusing me. I did nothing wrong.