Why do I feel so disgusted by myself? It's been months since he touched me and days since I was stalked, and I still feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. Why can't I move past this?

There is nothing wrong with you for still feeling this way. The disgust you're feeling is not about who you are...it's about what was done to you. But trauma has a cruel way of turning that outward violation inward, making you feel like the wrongness lives inside your body rather than in the actions of the person who harmed you.

When someone touches you without your consent, it can fundamentally disrupt your sense of ownership over your own body. Your skin, which is supposed to be yours alone, was treated as though it belonged to someone else. That violation can leave a residue that feels almost physical, like something is on you or in you that you can't wash off. The disgust you're describing is your mind and body's way of saying "this wasn't supposed to happen to me," and that reaction is actually a healthy, protective response, even though it feels unbearable right now.

And here's something important: you're not just healing from one thing. You mentioned being stalked just days ago. Stalking is its own form of violation. It strips away your sense of safety, privacy, and control over your own space and movements. When someone is stalking you, your nervous system doesn't get the chance to come down from high alert. Your body can't begin to fully process the trauma of being touched when it's simultaneously dealing with the ongoing threat of being watched and followed. These experiences are compounding each other, and it makes complete sense that you feel uncomfortable in your own skin right now, because multiple people have treated your body and your presence as something they're entitled to.

The timeline of healing is not measured in months. There is no expiration date on how long you're "allowed" to feel the impact of what happened to you, and the fact that the stalking is still so recent means your system is actively coping with ongoing threat, not just processing something from the past. Please try to be gentle with yourself about where you are right now. You are not behind. You are carrying the weight of someone else's actions in your body, and your body is asking for time, safety, and support to let that weight go. If you're able to access a trauma-informed therapist or advocate, they can help you work through both of these experiences and begin rebuilding that sense of safety and home within yourself. You deserve to feel comfortable in your own skin again, and with the right support, that is absolutely possible.