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I am not sure I am able to answer this question, I am not sure how much I have actually healed. I feel like I have been able to put my past behind me, but part of that meant just not thinking about it. I would like to be able to think about the things that happened to me and use them for something good, that feels like healing to me.
I am not sure how to tell this story, so I guess I will jump right in. I was raped by the boy I liked and was “dating” when I was 12 years old. He was a couple of years older and was also emotionally abusive. He raped me behind a church while we were hanging out. It changed me in so many ways and it is something I still struggle to understand now at 41. I was raped a second time, I was 19 and had been at a bar drinking. I don’t really remember a lot of what happened but woke up in a truck with 2 men taking turns having sex with me. When they were done one of them gave me a ride home and when I went into the house my mom was awake and waiting on the couch. I will never forget the look on her face when I tried to explain what happened, it was the strangest mix of sadness, disappointment, and nothing at all. I have worked hard to be able to tell my story out loud, and even at 41 I struggle with feelings of guilt and shame, and I know that those events impacted the trajectory of my life. I have never really talked about what happened to me, not in any constructive way. But I am back in college now and taking a victimology class that has brought up some really difficult emotions, I found this website while doing research for the aforementioned class, and felt moved to share.
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Grounding activity
Find a comfortable place to sit. Gently close your eyes and take a couple of deep breaths - in through your nose (count to 3), out through your mouth (count of 3). Now open your eyes and look around you. Name the following out loud:
5 – things you can see (you can look within the room and out of the window)
4 – things you can feel (what is in front of you that you can touch?)
3 – things you can hear
2 – things you can smell
1 – thing you like about yourself.
Take a deep breath to end.
From where you are sitting, look around for things that have a texture or are nice or interesting to look at.
Hold an object in your hand and bring your full focus to it. Look at where shadows fall on parts of it or maybe where there are shapes that form within the object. Feel how heavy or light it is in your hand and what the surface texture feels like under your fingers (This can also be done with a pet if you have one).
Take a deep breath to end.
Ask yourself the following questions and answer them out loud:
1. Where am I?
2. What day of the week is today?
3. What is today’s date?
4. What is the current month?
5. What is the current year?
6. How old am I?
7. What season is it?
Take a deep breath to end.
Put your right hand palm down on your left shoulder. Put your left hand palm down on your right shoulder. Choose a sentence that will strengthen you. For example: “I am powerful.” Say the sentence out loud first and pat your right hand on your left shoulder, then your left hand on your right shoulder.
Alternate the patting. Do ten pats altogether, five on each side, each time repeating your sentences aloud.
Take a deep breath to end.
Cross your arms in front of you and draw them towards your chest. With your right hand, hold your left upper arm. With your left hand, hold your right upper arm. Squeeze gently, and pull your arms inwards. Hold the squeeze for a little while, finding the right amount of squeeze for you in this moment. Hold the tension and release. Then squeeze for a little while again and release. Stay like that for a moment.
Take a deep breath to end.