Maitreyi

I was 17 back then and I met this guy at my college. He was a flirty rich bad boy type and I guess that attracted me at that teenage phase of my life. I expressed my interest in him and we soon started dating. On a particular day he send me a nude picture and I understood that we wanted to sext. Millions things were running in my mind. I was reluctant at first considering as I was always this introverted shy girl who gave preference to my culture where sex is a taboo. Upon my denial he manipulated me into sending nudes saying this is what girls do when they really love a guy. My naive and foolish self gave in. Later he wanted to have sex, I on the other hand wanted to lose my virginity only to a true love. With the same manipulation, I gave in once again. I was tired of seeing him flirt with other girls, trying to control my moves and messages only related to sex. I wanted to break up and his reaction was rather unexpected. He started shouting, verbally abusing and threatened to leak my nude pictures if I don't sleep with him again. I was afraid and ashamed to reveal this to my friends or family. My life turned upside down. I wet my pillow with tears as I realized this guy whom I loved is now ready to destroy my happy life. For many months he kept on sending these threats and I was trying to put on a happy face and hiding all the anxiety and fear I was facing from my people. A couple of his friends started sending me lewd messages and claimed they saw my nude pictures. I was devastated and wanted to burn my body. But I did the opposite. I dropped out my college, threw my phone from a cliff, cut everyone from my life and started preparing for law school entrances. Today, I study in one of the premier law schools and I am fearless since I know the legal know-how to tackle abusive exes and their revenge porn crimes. Still, the idea of being in a relationship and trusting men is scary because I have been scarred for life while I see that he leading quite a joyful life and dating a pretty girl. I felt like sharing this story to show women that you need to come out and say what's bothering you immediately and seek legal help and do not crumble like I did. Life is going to much better after whatever you faced. You need hope.