KEPT MOTHER'S SECRET SINCE I WAS 8TH GRADER--NOW A SENIOR CITIZEN @ 65 and NOT SILENT !

I, Name was sexually molested by my Mother's boyfriend for years 1969-1974... when she found this out she was so Angry but WITH ME !! Because " I did NOT TELL HER. " She'd beat me up 2 times that month already.. but on MY 8TH GRADE GRADUATION night was WORST in my life. I had HER permission to go to graduation parties. (but HER boyfriend did not want her to let me go and HE is still angry for telling on him.) so SHE ripped off my beautiful 100% COTTON white dress tearing it to shreds, I'm full of bruises and scratches. .next day I show her my 8th grade grad photo book PROVING whole group of us were ALL 8th grade STUDENTS walking home from party and THE MALES were in fact 8th grade graduates and NOT MEN like HE SAID. All MONTH she questioned me for details But when HE came home .mother ACTED like all was fine because she did not want him to know she's still questioning me. Finally, I'M awakened to come to mother's bedroom to see what "SHE' wants....Name pulls my pajama bottoms down..I pull them back up..HE pulls them down again..I pull them up again..he jerks my LEFT ARM landing me into mother's bed *WITH MOTHER ALSO..I'm pulling away from him and I SAY NO !! He calls on mother " Mother', I can't get it in..she won't be still. " Mother( MY BIOLOGICAL MOTHER ) got up, turned around on her knees in her bed while leaning over my head..SHE PUT HER HANDS on BOTH MY SHOULDERS and I felt her mattress springs from her heavy weight..SHE SAID to him "GO AHEAD, GIT IT, GIT IT..BUT DON'T NUT IN HUH"...I still remember looking into my mother's eyes for MY MOM.. My MOTHER. AND HE TOOK MY VIRGINITY. She NEVER SPOKE TO ME THAT NIGHT. Next morning : "YOU BETTER NOT TELL NOBODY or else"..I stayed SILENT. GAVE HER NO ANSWER. ** I NEVER AGREED TO KEEP HER DIRTY SECRET, but did so..because IF I told on HIM..HE could teel on HER and I would LOOSE MY Mother/My siblings and we would ALL be seperated and put into THE FOSTER CARE system !! I KNEW that as an 8th Grader. I was THEIR THIRD 'party' in their bed until I waited for Christmas presents and for SCHOOL TO REOPEN in JANUARY 1975 that's when I REFUSED TO DO IT ANYMORE. She told him to leave me alone. He bagan showing me his penis and touching himself and asking me "don't I want it?' I rolled my eyes only..soon I SEE him with his penis in my sister Sisters mouth (THEIR CHILD) and she is only 4 years old !! I TELL MOTHER on HIM..SHE IGNORED ME, does Not speak to me. I SCREAM AT HER REPEATING IT..nothing not one word. I was BLAMED for NOT TELLING HER...RIGHT? Next morning He DOES SAME to Sister while laughing at me. MOTHER MARRIES HIM on Date. She asks for a wedding ring..39 years later HE CHEATS on her with Name and brings her to Location Courthouse for his DIVORCE. Motherpresent at his DEATH BED and FUNERAL. HE gets CREMATED by HIS children. Note 1: sibling sister Name told me few years ago that he was doing same to her in 1969. Note 2: youngest sibling brother Name was ONLY 2 Years old and HAS NEVER heard MY STORY..but went to other siblings saying what HE MADE UP on Date as mother's excuse.and SHE STAYED SILENT letting him DEFEND HER..knowing she was NOT AFRAID SCARED AND WEAK of Name..BOTH OF THEM "DOUBLED TEAMED ME AND RAPED ME ..TOGETHER!!! Name interrupted Mother and I arguing because I asked her for HER APOLOGY FOR WHAT SHE DID TO ME..she always had said "HE was wrong..but never herself. Name was angry with me for LAND DEEDS & stealing HIS LAND.' IF my 7 siblings don't want to BELEIVE this factual account of MY LIFE EXPERIENCES..I CHALLENGE OUR MOTHER TO A LIE DETECTOR TEST. SHE will FAIL THE TEST. I am NOT A LIAR..BROTHERS Name and Name..YOU SAID I GAVE YOU NOTHING..I let YOU & other siblings KEEP PARENTS.. & TO KNOW EACH OTHER & NOT GET PLACED INTO THE FOSTER CARE SYSTEM OF NEW JERSEY by NOT TELLING/REPORTING 2 RAPES BY TWO STEED MEN as a MINOR..you got a FAMILY ! AND Name.. YOU THREATENNED MY LIFE IF I TOLD THIS..YOU SAID "I WILL KILL YOU" FOUR TIMES TO ME and Right in front of OUR MOTHER eating the salad you brought her and SHE SAID NOTHING !! JUST 5 days later you say YOU are an 'OFFICER of Location Courts and a NOTARY PUBLIC. ps: and Name wanted 'NO DETAILS. & wife Name said "Name, Name is YOUR SISTER" ...FALSE !! OUR Mother did NOT give BIRTH to Name..who remains JUST YOUR STEPSISTER. & ATTEMPTED TO STEAL $!k from OUR FATHER'S BANK ACCOUNT **after he had died....but the BANK caught it. Today is Monday, Date END.