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He called me linda
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I think healing for me is just not having to think so much about everything and not feeling so angry and hurt. Not wanting an apology so badly but being able to know that Its not my fault but his and truly know that. To not wonder or be scared to see him again or if he's not suffering like I am. Not feeling so worthless because I never meant anything to him and that someone could do something so harmful to me so easily without a care in the world or without any sympathy or care for the the pain they caused me.
I was 15 at the time and he was 18 and even though that wasn't illegal were I lived even though I was under the age of consent and there was nothing I could do after, it still feels so wrong. I thought it was fine at the time during the relationship, he was my first ever and I had no prior experiences before with anyone. He did, he had so much more experience than me and I think that's why he liked taking advantage of me. Pressuring me to do sexual things to him that I didn't want to do and told him I didn't want to but still did because I didn't feel like I had a voice. Any chance or option to say no because even if I did it wouldn't matter. No matter how I felt, I realize now never mattered to him at all. What I wanted was completely unimportant all that mattered was how he felt and if he wanted to have sex not me. I was nothing more than an object, I was just a doll to him.
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