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Burning Guilt
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When I was 12 years old, me and my cousin, who was a few months younger than me, had sex. It was my idea, but we were both willing. At the next sleepover we had, I asked her if she wanted to do it again, and she said no. We were very close for many years but that was the last sleepover we had. 6 years later, it continues to haunt me. When I was 13 or 14 I messaged her on Snapchat to apologise, and she said it was ok but it doesn’t feel ok. I fear it never will. I confessed to a priest and he said God forgave me. I told my best friend. I told my mother and she said it was normal. None of it could quell my burning guilt. On top of that, I’ve developed intrusive - inappropriate - thoughts that follow me like a dark cloud that I cannot shake off. There’s nothing in my life I regret more. I feel like I have completely sullied any opportunity of having positive sexual encounters in the future. Will I ever shake this burden? Do I even deserve to?
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