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This is going to sound cliche but it does get better. You have people around you who will love and support you no matter what. This experience that gas happened to you does not make you broken or dirty. You have so much more to offer this world. If you can't live for yourself live out of spite to see your abuser die or get what they deserve.

When my dad remarried after my mom I had no idea he was even seeing someone. They got married so quickly that my brother and I (m) never got a chance to know her or her kids. I was 7 or 8 at the time and my step brother- who was around 12 or so and I had to share a room. Everything started a few months after he had moved in. First it started by him masterbating in front of me and inviting me into his bed and it escalated from there. He then started to have me give him oral and and to "play with him" as he said then one day before church he tried to have anal sex with me. I didn't tell anyone this until 2021 when I was 22. For so long I didn't realize or understand why it happened or even that it was sexual assault and when I did I sobbed and ugly cried all day. Being gay this is seen as normal and highly expected. Along the same lines as a younger man hooking up with an older woman. I subconsciously was exploring and trying to understand why he had made me do those things with him and in the process I ended up hurting myself even more and possibly a few others along the way. I still wonder how my life would've been different had I not have to go through that experience. Would I still be gay, would I still be hiv positive? Would I have abetter relationship with drugs and alcohol be better? Would my relationship with men be different?

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