1975 sex abuse survivor / 1989 rape survivor

it began in the summer of 1975 when i was 8 years old my brother name came over to our home on home location where i am from he came with my other brother name 2 who had just got his license my sister name 3 was outside with everyone and i was a very camera shy child so i went up to my bedroom to play with my startrek playset and my brother name came in from the bathroom closed the door and asked me if i wanted to play doctor thinking he ment the childs version i said yes, instead we played the adult version and he had me take off my clothes and he was touching my naked body including my penis and my genitals, then he said some very filthy sex talk to me like you would find in hustler magazine and he was 19 years old, and said to me if you say anything to mom i will say that you wanted it. / then in september of 1989 my brother name and his girlffriend name 4 came up from st.petersburg, florida and stayed with mom and me for 3 months and while mom was at work they would rape me every night for 90 days i was forced to have a threesome against my will name 4 would force me to have sex with her in the back and make me lick her vagina until she had a loud orgasm, and force me to breast feed of her breasts, or she would take me behind school where she would make me take off my clothes and have sex with her right there out in the open, then one night name said he was going to make a real man out of me and take me to club name which is a strip club and paied one of the strippers 200.00 to have her way with me while he stayed in there and watched it all happen and did not stop it, the strip club has since long closed down, but then he would take me to an adult book store to watch xxx rated movies in a private booth and made me drop my pants and underwear so i had to masturbate while watching them then the next time went he made me take off my clothes and face the wall inside the booth i heard his belt buck hit the floor, i said name no he said shut up you are nothing but a fucking retard to me and im going to do what i want he snuck in his girlfriends vibrator and used it on me the cleark turned a deafs ear and ignored it, then name 4 and name would take me down into the basement of my home force me to strip naked and tie a ball gag on my mouth so i could not scream then tie my hands above my head on a beam and use a vibrator, stungun, taser, and whip on me then they would wet their hands and spank my ass untill it was red all i thought about every night for those 90 days of pure hell was wanting to commit suicide just to make it all end, but thanks to a divine intervention from god i am still here.