Poem: The Gun Kisser, by Name.

this is a form of poetry, it may be disturbing. Make sure you are mentally stable, you matter :) I’m the Gun Kisser. I hold the gun Never on safety. They hear it blast, still I’m unaware Of the smoking gun in my hand. Tears roll down, but I only see the stains. Guilt of fault. But it could’ve happened in another term, he should’ve killed me when he was given the chance. They tell me to safeguard it, not to wield the weapon in the open. But the stranger ‘big boy’ never did that for me, why should I? And when he was gone, he left a jagged puncture in my chest, Leading onto my eyes and lips, it paints my face with shocking joy, while all they see is a pale ghost. They lost me long ago, yet never want to accept that the little girl they fight for everyday is long gone, rotted under the court files that weren’t solved in time. She bled out on a mattress on the floor, buried under bare monsters with unphased eyes. But yet she swore to mama that the ‘big boy’ only kissed her on the cheek. I laugh, I joke, I make them feel better, I repeat my mistakes, I give them embracing love. But yet before bed, I kiss my own gun, lingering gunpowder reminding me of who he made me. The next rising sun is blinding enough to get me walking with my eyes shut. The truth is: I never healed. The wound won’t vanish just yet. Nor will the bandages yield my gushing fear of men. So, I resolved my struggles: Let the gun romance me. No one else will love my gun For how deep the bullet will pierce through more than your heart, It would be nowhere near romantic.