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Not blaming myself because the things what happened to me is not my fault and shouldn't happen for me or anyone.
He acted like he's the most active and honest guy. Gossiping or telling me the people we know mutually are not a nice guy or ppl who treat women like a toy. He told me other guys are looking other women to judge their looks and body shapes. He constantly told me he's not that kind of guy but you were still friends with them. He told me the other guys are talking about women's underwear colors they saw. I should have known that you are not different with the ppl you told me. He once told me he had a one night stand which I didn't like hearing but I tried to understand him because that happened a year ago before I met you. The pandora's box opened when I saw a photo album from his phone. He took an intimate photo of me without my consent and he didn't tell me he had it. I had a weird feeling so I scrolled up the album and saw other woman's intimate photos as well. I saw the dates and assumed that's the girl he had one night stand. He told me he was drunk and the girl was flirting with him and seduced him but you took someone's nude photos while you told me it was nothing. I don't believe and think all guys are like you or the guys you told me because the relationships I had before were not like this. I should have confronted you and ask you why you took the intimate image of me but I didn't had courage back then. I should have reported him for taking the picture of me without my permission. I'm having nightmares that a guy is following me to take a photo or film me. In that dream, I told the guy to stop but that guy was obsessively following me and get more aggressive. I ran away to a building and try to lock the door and hide but the man is shouting and pounding the door to hit me. I'm scared both in my dreams and in reality. I'm scared he could use that image to destroy me and shame me. I have to live my life without knowing what he could do with that picture. I was a brave woman to walk the streets but now I feel small and if there's a guy shouting aggressively, my heart rate goes extremely high. He used to talk violently and yelled at me when he was angry or drunk. I'm keep regretting that even though I noticed a lot of red flags, I still dated him. It feels like I made a bad decision and everything happened because of my decision to love him.
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Grounding activity
Find a comfortable place to sit. Gently close your eyes and take a couple of deep breaths - in through your nose (count to 3), out through your mouth (count of 3). Now open your eyes and look around you. Name the following out loud:
5 – things you can see (you can look within the room and out of the window)
4 – things you can feel (what is in front of you that you can touch?)
3 – things you can hear
2 – things you can smell
1 – thing you like about yourself.
Take a deep breath to end.
From where you are sitting, look around for things that have a texture or are nice or interesting to look at.
Hold an object in your hand and bring your full focus to it. Look at where shadows fall on parts of it or maybe where there are shapes that form within the object. Feel how heavy or light it is in your hand and what the surface texture feels like under your fingers (This can also be done with a pet if you have one).
Take a deep breath to end.
Ask yourself the following questions and answer them out loud:
1. Where am I?
2. What day of the week is today?
3. What is today’s date?
4. What is the current month?
5. What is the current year?
6. How old am I?
7. What season is it?
Take a deep breath to end.
Put your right hand palm down on your left shoulder. Put your left hand palm down on your right shoulder. Choose a sentence that will strengthen you. For example: “I am powerful.” Say the sentence out loud first and pat your right hand on your left shoulder, then your left hand on your right shoulder.
Alternate the patting. Do ten pats altogether, five on each side, each time repeating your sentences aloud.
Take a deep breath to end.
Cross your arms in front of you and draw them towards your chest. With your right hand, hold your left upper arm. With your left hand, hold your right upper arm. Squeeze gently, and pull your arms inwards. Hold the squeeze for a little while, finding the right amount of squeeze for you in this moment. Hold the tension and release. Then squeeze for a little while again and release. Stay like that for a moment.
Take a deep breath to end.