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As I grow older - I am 27 years old now - I keep thinking about my first sexual experience and it confuses me so much. I was around five or six years old and my friend at the time was in the bathroom stall next to mine when she crawled underneath to get into mine. She touched me and I knew it was wrong, but I was afraid to tell her no because I did not want to hurt her feelings or get her in trouble. So, I let her. As she was doing so I felt like all the life and joy had been taken from me. It felt like a depression blanket had been wrapped around me. I felt so heavy, shameful, mortified, and I have not been the same since. It felt like rape or assault, but how could it have been if I didn't say no? I let it happen and have never told anyone. On top of that, what right do I have to feel so terrible about it when the girl was the same age as me and it seems she had been exposed to the sexual narrative at a too young age herself?
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