#31

The thing is, i dont know it was sexual abuse or not. I was a young kid, cant be more than 8, I used to love sitting in the front of my car, a shotgun like scenario, my driver used to clutch my groin in short bursts, i still dont know if it actually happened or not, but I remember it hurting, I remember covering my groin every time i entered the car alone, i never realised why he did not do it when my parents where around. Eventually, they noticed something was wrong, and it stopped. I suddenly got hit by those memories, i have no idea whether they are real or not. The worst part is the same driver continued to stay with us -please note that where I'm from, it common to get chauffeured in young ages . I had a good relationship with my driver, but yesterday, all these old repressed memories hit me like a brick. My parents made him stop, but i have no idea why they didnt fireq him -i think it was cause he was working for them for like 10 yrs at that point, but still, a part of me blames them. It never happened after my parents asked me bout it,i think they tslked it over with my driver, but now, I'm having hit by all these memories like a brick