COCSA

i was visiting a cousin's house this one summer and my 2nd cousin was also there too, hanging out as well. i remember being upstairs in my cousin's "gaming room" with multiple of my cousins, my brother, and, the star of the show, my 2nd cousin. we were about to watch a movie i'm pretty sure and my 2nd cousin started to get a little closer to me and sometimes kissing me too. we then started to watch the movie and right after it was finished, everyone left and it was just me and my 2nd cousin. i remember being behind a couch and laying next to a treadmill. he was on top of me, kissing me with tongue. he told me not tell anyone and i didnt because i was afraid of what he might do and i also hated confrontiality (i still do). he finally stopped when my brother walked in and told the adults about what he saw. i was 8-9 and he was 12-13 when this happened. i dont know if he remembers this happening but sometimes when i see him during family gatherings, it feels like its happening all over again. i kind of feel pathetic for not getting over something that happened when we were kids.