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Colombia\]Colombia](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=co)[\[Image: 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Cuba\]Cuba](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=cu)[\[Image: 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Ecuador\]Ecuador](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ec)[\[Image: Equatorial Guinea\]Equatorial 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Guatemala\]Guatemala](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=gt)[\[Image: Honduras\]Honduras](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=hn)[\[Image: Ireland\]Ireland](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ie)[\[Image: Japan\]Japan](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=jp)[\[Image: Mexico\]Mexico](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=mx)[\[Image: Nicaragua\]Nicaragua](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ni)[\[Image: 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Zealand](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=nz)[\[Image: 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Paraguay\]Paraguay](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=py)[\[Image: 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Rico](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=pr)[\[Image: 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United Kingdom\]United Kingdom](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=gb)[\[Image: Uruguay\]Uruguay](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=uy)[\[Image: Venezuela\]Venezuela](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ve)

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# 子ども時代のトラウマを解消するのに助けが必要です。私は多くの人から傷つけられてきましたが、特に母は私に対して非常に不適切な境界線を維持していました。母はトイレや衛生習慣の間に肉体的な親密さを強要し、私の体について性的な発言をし、母との関係について露骨な詳細を話し、私を子供というよりパートナーのように扱いました。母は公衆トイレで母を見るように私に強要し、拒否すればもっとひどい虐待を受けると脅しました。 本当に私を悩ませているのは、7～8歳の頃、母が知らないうちにトイレ関連の出来事を通じて私の性的覚醒となり、大人になってもまだ残っているフェチを発達させたことです。私は自分のセクシュアリティと折り合いをつけましたが、母が虐待を通じてそれを形作ったことに気付いて恐怖を感じています。母は今、私はただ「甘やかされた」だけだと主張し、すべてを否定しています。 セラピストはこれが性的虐待と暴行だったことを認めていますが、私はそれが性交強姦ではなかったため、その曖昧さに苦しんでいます。それが私の性的嗜好に及ぼした影響のせいで、私は物事を誤解しているのでしょうか? 私はただ、私に何が起こったのかをはっきりと表現したいのですが、明確さが欠けているため、それがとても難しいのです。

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**Dr. Laura**による回答

博士号精神保健看護師＆性暴力看護師認定者

トピックス:[いやしを理解し受け入れる](/ja/learn/topics/understanding-and-embracing-healing)

私たちにあなたの話を信頼してくださり、本当にありがとうございます。あなたがこのような辛く混乱した経験に耐えなければならなかったことを、心からお気の毒に思います。あなたが話されたことは、あなたを守り、気遣うべき人による、あなたの境界と信頼の重大な侵害です。あなたが傷つき、混乱し、裏切られたと感じるのは、まったく当然のことです。

あなたが母親に対して行った行動は、確かに虐待の一種のように思えます。あなたを子どもではなく仲間として扱うこと、不適切なコンテンツにさらすこと、プライバシーを侵害すること、あなたの体について不安を抱かせるような発言をすること、望まない身体的接触をすること、これらはすべて極めて不適切で有害な行為です。虐待にはさまざまな形があり、必ずしも単一の定義やラベルに当てはまるわけではないことを認識することが重要です。

「レイプ」という用語が当てはまるかどうかに関わらず、最も重要なのは、自分が虐待や搾取行為の対象となり、それが自分の人生に大きな影響を与えたことを認識することです。被害者が感じる曖昧さは、特に虐待が社会が描く典型的な物語に当てはまらない場合、珍しいことではありません。養育者、特に親による虐待は、その関係に固有の信頼と依存関係があるため、複雑さが増します。

こうしたことがあなたに起こったのは、あなたのせいではありません。あなたは子供であり、あなたの母親はあなたの世話と健康に責任がありました。あなたの感情に関する混乱や興味の発達は、あなたが経験したことに対する当然の反応です。多くの生存者は、同様の感情や、自分のアイデンティティや人間関係に関する疑問に悩まされています。

あなたが経験したことが性的虐待と暴行であるというセラピストの認定は重要です。加害者が不正行為を否定したり、自分の行為を軽視したりする場合は特に、自分自身に疑問を抱き、疑念を抱くのは普通のことです。あなたの視点が重要であり、あなたの痛みは本物であることを知っておいてください。

また、フェチに関する考えや感情については、自分自身に優しくすることも重要です。私たちの脳は、トラウマに反応して対処メカニズムを開発することがありますが、これはあなたが悪いとか、あなたの価値を低下させるものではありません。セラピストと一緒にこれらの感情を探ることは、安全でサポートのある環境でそれらを理解し、処理するのに役立ちます。

あなたは癒され、平穏を得るに値します。信頼できるメンタルヘルスの専門家と協力し続けることで、この旅に必要なサポートとガイダンスを得ることができます。あなたは一人ではないことを忘れないでください。あなたのことを気にかけていて、助けたいと願っている人々がいます。私たちとあなたのストーリーを共有してくれて、改めて感謝します。これらの困難な記憶に立ち向かうあなたの強さは素晴らしいです。この癒しのプロセスを進める間、どうか自分自身に優しくしてください。

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Guatemala\]Guatemala](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=gt)[\[Image: 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Ireland\]Ireland](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ie)[\[Image: Japan\]Japan](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=jp)[\[Image: Mexico\]Mexico](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=mx)[\[Image: Nicaragua\]Nicaragua](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ni)[\[Image: New Zealand\]New Zealand](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=nz)[\[Image: Panama\]Panama](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=pa)[\[Image: Paraguay\]Paraguay](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=py)[\[Image: Peru\]Peru](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=pe)[\[Image: Puerto Rico\]Puerto Rico](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=pr)[\[Image: Spain\]Spain](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=es)[\[Image: United Kingdom\]United Kingdom](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=gb)[\[Image: Uruguay\]Uruguay](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=uy)[\[Image: Venezuela\]Venezuela](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382?country=ve)

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[English](/en/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382)[Español](/es/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382)[日本語](/ja/answer/i-need-help-processing-my-childhood-trauma-i-have-been-harmed-by-many-people-but-my-mother-specifically-maintained-deeply-inappropriate-boundaries-with-me-she-would-force-physical-intimacy-during-bathroom-hygiene-routines-make-sexual-comments-about-my-body-share-explicit-details-about-her-relationships-and-treated-me-more-like-a-partner-than-her-child-shed-force-me-to-watch-her-in-public-restrooms-threatening-worse-abuse-if-i-refused-whats-really-haunting-me-is-that-at-around-age-7-8-she-unknowingly-became-my-sexual-awakening-through-these-bathroom-related-incidents-and-i-developed-fetishes-that-i-still-have-as-an-adult-while-ive-made-peace-with-my-sexuality-im-horrified-realizing-she-shaped-it-through-abuse-she-denies-everything-now-claiming-i-was-just-coddled-my-therapist-validates-that-this-was-sexual-abuse-and-assault-but-i-struggle-with-the-ambiguity-since-it-wasnt-penetrative-rape-am-i-misinterpreting-things-because-of-how-it-affected-my-sexuality-i-just-want-to-be-able-to-name-what-happened-to-me-but-the-lack-of-clarity-makes-it-so-hard-382)

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暴力、憎悪、搾取

脅迫、憎悪に満ちた言葉、性的強要

いじめ、または望まない接触

ハラスメント、脅迫、執拗な迷惑メッセージ

詐欺、詐称、なりすまし

虚偽の要求、または別人を名乗ること

偽の情報

誤解を招く主張や意図的な情報操作

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接地活動

座り心地の良い場所を見つけてください。目を軽く閉じて、深呼吸を数回します。鼻から息を吸い（3つ数え）、口から息を吐きます（3つ数え）。さあ、目を開けて周りを見回してください。以下のことを声に出して言ってみてください。

見えるもの5つ（部屋の中と窓の外を見ることができます）

感じるもの4つ（目の前にあるもので触れるものは何ですか？）

聞こえるもの3つ

匂いを嗅ぐもの2つ

自分の好きなところ1つ。

最後に深呼吸をしましょう。

座っている場所から、周囲を見回して、質感のあるもの、見ていて楽しいもの、興味深いものを探してください。

何かを手に持ち、その物に全神経を集中してください。影が落ちている部分や、物の中に形が浮かび上がっている部分に注目してください。手に持った時の重さや軽さ、指の裏側の表面の質感を感じてみてください（ペットを飼っている場合は、ペットと一緒に行うこともできます）。

最後に深呼吸をしましょう。

以下の質問を自分に問いかけ、声に出して答えましょう。

1\. 私はどこにいますか？

2\. 今日は何曜日ですか？

3\. 今日の日付は何ですか？

4\. 今は何月ですか？

5\. 今は何年ですか？

6\. 私は何歳ですか？

7\. 今はどんな季節ですか？

最後に深呼吸をしましょう。

右手の手のひらを下にして左肩に置きます。左手の手のひらを下にして右肩に置きます。自分を強くしてくれるような言葉を選びましょう。例えば、「私は力強い」などです。まず文章を声に出して読み、右手で左肩を軽く叩き、次に左手で右肩を軽く叩きます。

交互に叩きます。左右5回ずつ、合計10回叩き、そのたびに文章を声に出して繰り返します。

最後に深呼吸をします。

腕を体の前で交差させ、胸に引き寄せます。右手で左上腕を、左手で右上腕を押さえます。優しく握り、腕を内側に引きます。しばらく握りしめた状態を保ち、その瞬間の自分にとって適切な握り加減を見つけます。力を入れたら力を抜きます。そして再びしばらく握りしめ、力を抜きます。しばらくそのままの状態を保ちます。

最後に深呼吸をします。

別のグラウンディング活動を試してみましょう

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