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title: 私は11歳のときに幼少期の性的虐待（CSA）を経験しました。それ以来、自分が経験したのと同じ種類の虐待を渇望するとい... ~ Our Wave コミュニティ
description: わあ。これは本当につらいことです。まずは、勇気を出して私たちに連絡し、あなたの体験を話してくれたことを称賛したいと思います。あなたが経験したことはあなたのせいではありませんし、あなたの感情や葛藤は正当なものです。トラウマに対するあなたの反応は、異常で非常に有害な状況に対する正常な反応であることを理解することが重要で...
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[\[Image: Argentina\]Argentina](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ar)[\[Image: Australia\]Australia](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=au)[\[Image: Bolivia\]Bolivia](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=bo)[\[Image: Canada\]Canada](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ca)[\[Image: Chile\]Chile](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=cl)[\[Image: Colombia\]Colombia](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=co)[\[Image: Costa Rica\]Costa Rica](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=cr)[\[Image: Cuba\]Cuba](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=cu)[\[Image: Dominican Republic\]Dominican Republic](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=do)[\[Image: Ecuador\]Ecuador](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ec)[\[Image: El Salvador\]El Salvador](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=sv)[\[Image: Equatorial Guinea\]Equatorial Guinea](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=gq)[\[Image: Guatemala\]Guatemala](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=gt)[\[Image: Honduras\]Honduras](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=hn)[\[Image: Ireland\]Ireland](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ie)[\[Image: Japan\]Japan](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=jp)[\[Image: Mexico\]Mexico](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=mx)[\[Image: Nicaragua\]Nicaragua](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ni)[\[Image: New Zealand\]New Zealand](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=nz)[\[Image: Panama\]Panama](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=pa)[\[Image: 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# 私は11歳のときに幼少期の性的虐待（CSA）を経験しました。それ以来、自分が経験したのと同じ種類の虐待を渇望するという、私がマゾヒスティックな傾向であると信じているものに苦しんでいます。虐待によって性的発達が妨げられ、セックスを支配、服従、そして不快感や痛みを伴う場合でも自分の喜びよりも相手の喜びを優先することと関連付けるようになったと理解しています。私は本当にそれらを望んでいるわけではないのに、虐待者の欲望が私に押し付けられたように感じます。私はこれらの感情を恥ずかしく思い、うんざりしており、それらに対処し、管理するための助けが必要です。虐待の現実を描いた番組を見ていくらか安心しましたが、それでも難しいです。これらの感情にうまく対処し、私が経験したのはセックスではなく虐待だったことを理解するにはどうすればよいでしょうか。

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**Dr. Laura**による回答

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トピックス:[幼少期の経験を理解する](/ja/learn/topics/making-sense-of-childhood-experiences)[感情と身体感覚を管理する](/ja/learn/topics/managing-emotions-and-how-you-feel-in-your-body)

わあ。これは本当につらいことです。まずは、勇気を出して私たちに連絡し、あなたの体験を話してくれたことを称賛したいと思います。あなたが経験したことはあなたのせいではありませんし、あなたの感情や葛藤は正当なものです。トラウマに対するあなたの反応は、異常で非常に有害な状況に対する正常な反応であることを理解することが重要です。私たちを信頼してこのことを話してくださり、ありがとうございます。

あなたもご存知のとおり、幼少期の性的虐待 (CSA) は、人の性的発達に重大な影響を及ぼす可能性があります。被害者が混乱や羞恥心を抱き、虐待をもう一度味わいたいという欲求に駆られることも珍しくありません。これはあなたの性格や欲求を反映したものではなく、あなたが経験した複雑なトラウマの結果です。

あなたが経験したのは性的行為ではなく、虐待だったということを覚えておくことが重要です。虐待者は自分の欲望を優先し、あなたの健康を無視して、あなたを操作し、利用しました。あなたの不快感、痛み、服従の感情は、健全な性的体験の自然な一部ではなく、虐待の結果でした。

性的トラウマからの回復は長い道のりであり、忍耐強く、自分自身に思いやりを持つことが重要です。幼少期の性的虐待の被害者を専門とするセラピストから専門的な支援を受けることは、非常に有益です。セラピストは、感情を処理し、対処戦略を立て、健全な行動パターンと不健全な行動パターンを認識し、回復に向けて取り組むための安全な空間を提供してくれます。

セラピーに加えて、虐待に関連した侵入的な思考や感情に対処する方法は他にもあります。マインドフルネスの実践、日記の記録、趣味への参加などのセルフケア活動に取り組むことは、前向きな方法で自分の体と心と再びつながるのに役立ちます。また、パートナーなしで安全な接触がどのようなものか、どのような感じなのかを自分で学ぶために、自分自身で自分の体とセクシュアリティを探り始めることもできます。あなたの経験や感情を認めてくれる支えとなる友人や家族に囲まれることも、敬意と愛情のある関係がどのようなものかを示すのに役立ちます。

[この質問](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fstories.ourwave.org%2Fen%2Fanswer%2Fafter-being-assaulted-ive-become-somewhat-obsessed-with-sexual-assault-as-a-topic-is-this-unhealthy-141&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en-US&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=b65a36c5-2f1e-482d-aa70-a9168bdf5420&sig=be516bff742d66ffaad5e01107ea213bc8a218bad0f3b4ae21431022f52a95a1)に対する別の回答をぜひ読んでみてください。性的暴行コンテンツへのアクセスに「取り憑かれている」という感覚から抜け出すにはどうすればよいかを被害者が尋ねています。これは少し違うように感じますが、あなたの質問に関連しているようです。このような苦悩を抱えているのはあなただけではありません。

回復は直線的なプロセスではなく、途中で浮き沈みがあるかもしれないことを覚えておくことが重要です。回復には時間がかかります。自分に優しくして、どんなに小さく見えても、自分が成し遂げた進歩を認めてください。そして、あなたの安全と健康が最優先事項であることを忘れないでください。

あなたをサポートするためのリソースがあることを覚えておいてください。追加のサポートやより個別のガイダンスを得るために[、RAINN、](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fhotline.rainn.org%2Fonline&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en-US&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=b65a36c5-2f1e-482d-aa70-a9168bdf5420&sig=68b74b882a92b521b41c4925dc434483232bfa31fe7578d5b107c48bed4f6fd6) [ChildHelp](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.childhelphotline.org%2F&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en-US&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=b65a36c5-2f1e-482d-aa70-a9168bdf5420&sig=576f8e93156ed045f02d90dd8b22c7db62174bb5a39b54680cb722d666741193) 、または[地元の性的暴行サポート センター](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.nsvrc.org%2Ffind-help&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en-US&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=b65a36c5-2f1e-482d-aa70-a9168bdf5420&sig=98af49b2f98a0dbf312ad14ca2812dec87396bccefbcbebd75517353e2537bf4)などの組織に連絡することを検討してください。

覚えておいてください、あなたは強く、回復力があり、愛と尊敬に値する人です。あなたの経験があなたを定義するわけではありません。あなたには、自分の物語を取り戻し、自分のやり方で癒す力があります。私たちにこれを託してくださり、本当にありがとうございます。

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Australia\]Australia](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=au)[\[Image: Bolivia\]Bolivia](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=bo)[\[Image: Canada\]Canada](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ca)[\[Image: Chile\]Chile](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=cl)[\[Image: Colombia\]Colombia](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=co)[\[Image: Costa Rica\]Costa Rica](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=cr)[\[Image: Cuba\]Cuba](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=cu)[\[Image: Dominican Republic\]Dominican Republic](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=do)[\[Image: Ecuador\]Ecuador](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ec)[\[Image: El Salvador\]El Salvador](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=sv)[\[Image: Equatorial Guinea\]Equatorial Guinea](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=gq)[\[Image: Guatemala\]Guatemala](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=gt)[\[Image: Honduras\]Honduras](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=hn)[\[Image: Ireland\]Ireland](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ie)[\[Image: Japan\]Japan](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=jp)[\[Image: Mexico\]Mexico](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=mx)[\[Image: Nicaragua\]Nicaragua](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ni)[\[Image: New Zealand\]New Zealand](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=nz)[\[Image: Panama\]Panama](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=pa)[\[Image: Paraguay\]Paraguay](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=py)[\[Image: Peru\]Peru](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=pe)[\[Image: Puerto Rico\]Puerto Rico](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=pr)[\[Image: Spain\]Spain](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=es)[\[Image: United Kingdom\]United Kingdom](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=gb)[\[Image: Uruguay\]Uruguay](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=uy)[\[Image: Venezuela\]Venezuela](/ja/answer/i-experienced-childhood-sexual-abuse-csa-when-i-was-11-since-then-ive-been-struggling-with-what-i-believe-to-be-masochistic-tendencies-craving-the-same-kind-of-abuse-i-experienced-i-understand-that-my-sexual-development-was-disrupted-by-the-abuse-leading-me-to-associate-sex-with-control-submission-and-prioritizing-the-other-persons-pleasure-over-my-own-even-if-it-involves-my-discomfort-or-pain-i-feel-like-the-abusers-desires-have-been-imposed-on-me-even-though-i-dont-genuinely-want-those-things-im-ashamed-and-tired-of-these-feelings-and-i-need-help-coping-and-managing-them-ive-found-some-relief-by-watching-shows-that-depict-the-reality-of-abuse-but-its-still-challenging-how-can-i-better-cope-with-these-feelings-and-understand-that-what-i-experienced-was-abuse-not-sex-150?country=ve)

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