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title: Soy una sobreviviente de abuso sexual infantil que comenzó... ~ Comunidad Our Wave
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# Soy una sobreviviente de abuso sexual infantil que comenzó alrededor de los 10 años y se intensificó a los 15. Nunca he tenido sexo consensual y lucho con pensamientos y fantasías intrusivas sobre mi trauma: es lo único que me excita, lo que me llena de vergüenza intensa y me hace cuestionar si de alguna manera fui responsable. Me encuentro obsesionada con la masturbación y al mismo tiempo aterrorizada por la intimidad del mundo real. Anhelo y temo las relaciones sexuales. ¿Son normales estos sentimientos conflictivos para los sobrevivientes? ¿Por qué el mismo trauma que me hace tener miedo al sexo también me hace quererlo? Me siento tan repugnante.

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Enfermera de Salud Mental con Doctorado y Examinadora de Enfermera de Agresión Sexual

Temas:[Cómo navegar las relaciones después de un trauma](/es/learn/topics/navigating-relationships-after-trauma)

Quiero empezar diciendo: no eres repugnante, no tienes la culpa y tus reacciones son, de hecho, muy comunes entre los supervivientes. Lo que estás experimentando (la mezcla de miedo y deseo, los pensamientos intrusivos, la vergüenza e incluso la excitación relacionada con el trauma) son todas reacciones bien documentadas al abuso sexual. Muchos supervivientes luchan con estos mismos sentimientos. Esto no sucede porque haya algo malo en ti o porque hayas deseado el abuso, sucede porque tu cerebro y tu cuerpo se vieron obligados a procesar un trauma complejo durante períodos críticos del desarrollo.

La conexión entre el trauma y la excitación se produce porque nuestros cuerpos pueden responder físicamente a los estímulos sexuales incluso en situaciones traumáticas; se trata de una respuesta puramente fisiológica y NO significa que hayas deseado el abuso o que hayas sido responsable de él. Así como alguien puede reírse cuando le hacen cosquillas aunque odie que le hagan cosquillas, los cuerpos pueden responder al contacto sexual incluso en circunstancias traumáticas. Tu cerebro también puede haber formado conexiones entre estas experiencias y la excitación simplemente porque fueron tus primeras exposiciones a los sentimientos sexuales, durante los años de formación.

El miedo y el deseo simultáneos de intimidad también son muy comunes. Una parte de ti desea naturalmente una conexión sana y una intimidad (una necesidad humana normal), mientras que otra parte intenta protegerte de sufrir más daño. No son contradictorias: ambas son respuestas válidas al trauma.

Si esto te está causando angustia, podrías considerar trabajar con un terapeuta especializado en traumas y en la recuperación de abusos sexuales. Ellos pueden brindarte un entorno seguro donde puedas procesar estos sentimientos a tu propio ritmo. No hay prisa: la curación lleva tiempo y te mereces el espacio para avanzar gradualmente, sin ninguna presión para lanzarte a las relaciones sexuales antes de estar listo. A muchos sobrevivientes también les resulta muy útil conectarse con grupos de apoyo, donde pueden compartir experiencias con otras personas que realmente comprenden. Escuchar que no estás solo en estas experiencias puede ayudar a aliviar los sentimientos de vergüenza y aislamiento que estás compartiendo.

Ya has demostrado una fortaleza increíble al acercarte y hacer estas preguntas. Eso requiere coraje. Con apoyo y tiempo, muchos sobrevivientes pueden desarrollar relaciones íntimas saludables y satisfactorias y una relación más pacífica con su sexualidad. Tú también lo mereces y es posible. Gracias por acercarte a nosotros. Ten paciencia contigo mismo. No estás solo.

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Actividad de puesta a tierra

Encuentra un lugar cómodo para sentarte. Cierra los ojos suavemente y respira profundamente un par de veces: inhala por la nariz (cuenta hasta 3), exhala por la boca (cuenta hasta 3). Ahora abre los ojos y mira a tu alrededor. Nombra lo siguiente en voz alta:

5 – cosas que puedes ver (puedes mirar dentro de la habitación y por la ventana)

4 – cosas que puedes sentir (¿qué hay frente a ti que puedas tocar?)

3 – cosas que puedes oír

2 – cosas que puedes oler

1 – cosa que te gusta de ti mismo.

Respira hondo para terminar.

Desde donde estás sentado, busca objetos con textura o que sean bonitos o interesantes.

Sostén un objeto en la mano y concéntrate completamente en él. Observa dónde caen las sombras en algunas partes o quizás dónde se forman formas dentro del objeto. Siente lo pesado o ligero que es en la mano y cómo se siente la textura de la superficie bajo los dedos (esto también se puede hacer con una mascota, si tienes una).

Respira hondo para terminar.

Hazte las siguientes preguntas y respóndelas en voz alta:

1\. ¿Dónde estoy?

2\. ¿Qué día de la semana es hoy?

3\. ¿Qué fecha es hoy?

4\. ¿En qué mes estamos?

5\. ¿En qué año estamos?

6\. ¿Cuántos años tengo?

7\. ¿En qué estación estamos?

Respira hondo para terminar.

Coloca la palma de la mano derecha sobre el hombro izquierdo. Coloca la palma de la mano izquierda sobre el hombro derecho. Elige una frase que te fortalezca. Por ejemplo: "Soy poderoso". Di la oración en voz alta primero y da una palmadita con la mano derecha en el hombro izquierdo, luego con la mano izquierda en el hombro derecho.

Alterna las palmaditas. Da diez palmaditas en total, cinco de cada lado, repitiendo cada vez las oraciones en voz alta.

Respira hondo para terminar.

Cruza los brazos frente a ti y llévalos hacia el pecho. Con la mano derecha, sujeta el brazo izquierdo. Con la mano izquierda, sujeta el brazo derecho. Aprieta suavemente y lleva los brazos hacia adentro. Mantén la presión un rato, buscando la intensidad adecuada para ti en ese momento. Mantén la tensión y suelta. Luego, vuelve a apretar un rato y suelta. Mantén la presión un momento.

Respira hondo para terminar.

Pruebe otra actividad de puesta a tierra

Me siento arraigado y preparado