--- title: "I had a relationship from ages 10-14 with someone who was... ~ Our Wave Community" description: "Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. First, I want to emphasize that children cannot consent to sexual activities, regardless of how \"mature\"..." url: https://community.ourwave.org/en/answer/i-had-a-relationship-from-ages-10-14-with-someone-who-was-13-17-i-had-previous-trauma-and-was-exposed-to-sexual-content-from-a-young-age-by-my-biological-father-which-led-me-to-develop-hypersexual-ten language: en --- 🇺🇸 Community note This question contains references to self-harm or suicidal thoughts. If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out to a crisis helpline. # I had a relationship from ages 10-14 with someone who was 13-17. I had previous trauma and was exposed to sexual content from a young age by my biological father, which led me to develop hypersexual tendencies. When we met, I quickly developed a crush on this person. Our relationship became sexual both online and physically. They had their own trauma from sexual assault and depended on me emotionally during PTSD episodes and suicidal thoughts. My mental health declined during this relationship. When I questioned the age gap, they said it was okay because I was "mature for my age" and because they had autism they "felt younger." I still talk to this person but feel our relationship wasn't normal. Was this grooming? I feel like it negatively impacted my development, but I also feel partially responsible since I never said no. How should I understand this situation? *Image: Dr. Laura* Answer by **Dr. Laura** PhD Mental Health Nurse & Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner Topics:[Understanding specific types of trauma and harm](https://community.ourwave.org/en/learn/topics/understanding-specific-types-of-trauma-and-harm) Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. First, I want to emphasize that children cannot consent to sexual activities, regardless of how "mature" they might seem. The concept of being "mature for your age" is often used in situations where boundaries are being crossed. The age difference between you—starting when you were 10 and he was 13—may not seem significant to some, but during those formative years, even a few years can represent a substantial difference in maturity, understanding, and life experience. This can create a power imbalance, even if unintentional. Between ages 10-17, young people go through enormous cognitive, emotional, and social development that amplifies these differences. What makes this situation particularly complex is that both of you were navigating difficult traumatic experiences from a very young age. Your partner was dealing with their own significant trauma and mental health challenges. This doesn't excuse the inappropriate nature of the sexual relationship, but it adds layers to understanding the dynamics. They may have been repeating patterns from their own experiences of abuse, which is a common but harmful cycle. The emotional burden placed on you to manage their PTSD episodes and suicidal thoughts was not appropriate. No child should be responsible for another person's mental health or safety, especially in the way you described where you were losing sleep and sacrificing your wellbeing. This kind of emotional dependency can be extremely draining and harmful to your own development. Your feelings that something wasn't right about the relationship are important to acknowledge. Those feelings are your internal wisdom trying to protect you. Trusting your instincts can be a crucial step in understanding your experiences and taking care of yourself. The negative impact on your mental health and development that you've identified is real and valid. It's crucial to understand that you are not responsible for what happened. Children are not responsible for maintaining boundaries that adults and older adolescents should be maintaining. Your participation doesn't indicate fault or responsibility - you were navigating complex situations with the tools you had available at the time, while coping with your own trauma. Moving forward, speaking with a trusted adult—such as a parent, guardian, teacher, or school counselor—about how you're feeling could be very helpful. A trauma-informed therapist who specializes in childhood sexual trauma can provide personalized support as you work through these experiences and their impact on your development. Many survivors find that understanding what happened through a developmental and trauma-informed lens helps them develop compassion for themselves and begin healing. Remember that healing isn't linear, and making sense of complex traumatic experiences takes time. You don't have to figure this out on your own. Reaching out for help is a sign of strength, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. Your questions and reflections show remarkable self-awareness and courage. Whatever labels you ultimately choose to understand your experiences, your feelings are valid, and you deserve to feel safe and understood as you work through these feelings. Thank you so much for trusting us with this. You are not alone. Random Question 0 Upvote(s) [0 Comment(s)](https://community.ourwave.org/en/answer/i-had-a-relationship-from-ages-10-14-with-someone-who-was-13-17-i-had-previous-trauma-and-was-exposed-to-sexual-content-from-a-young-age-by-my-biological-father-which-led-me-to-develop-hypersexual-ten#comments) ##### Similar community content