--- title: I (21) recently cut contact with a close friend (24) after realizing he may have assaulted me. I'm confused about what happened and how much was his fault versus mine. We were online friends before meeting in person with plans for consensual activities. When alone, he would beg for sex when I expressed tiredness or uncertainty. I relented once because I felt obligated after he complained about feeling left out. Another time when I was sick with a UTI, he pressured me into a sexual act despite my initial refusal. I also know he penetrated me while I was asleep, but I'm unsure if we explicitly negotiated this beforehand. After he left, I maintained contact but shifted toward dominating him remotely. I eventually realized how uncomfortable those encounters made me feel. When confronted, he apologized and admitted being pushy. I eventually cut contact after researching sexual assault. I'm confused because in our messages, I expressed more interest than I remembered feeling. I switch between feeling relieved he's gone and wondering if I was too harsh. What happened to me? Why did I continue engaging sexually if it made me uncomfortable? Is it partly my fault for showing interest, not explicitly saying no, or giving in to pressure? ~ Our Wave Community description:

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Send it to us 🇺🇸 # I (21) recently cut contact with a close friend (24) after realizing he may have assaulted me. I'm confused about what happened and how much was his fault versus mine. We were online friends before meeting in person with plans for consensual activities. When alone, he would beg for sex when I expressed tiredness or uncertainty. I relented once because I felt obligated after he complained about feeling left out. Another time when I was sick with a UTI, he pressured me into a sexual act despite my initial refusal. I also know he penetrated me while I was asleep, but I'm unsure if we explicitly negotiated this beforehand. After he left, I maintained contact but shifted toward dominating him remotely. I eventually realized how uncomfortable those encounters made me feel. When confronted, he apologized and admitted being pushy. I eventually cut contact after researching sexual assault. I'm confused because in our messages, I expressed more interest than I remembered feeling. I switch between feeling relieved he's gone and wondering if I was too harsh. What happened to me? Why did I continue engaging sexually if it made me uncomfortable? Is it partly my fault for showing interest, not explicitly saying no, or giving in to pressure? \[Image: Dr. Laura\] Answer by **Dr. Laura** PhD Mental Health Nurse & Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner Topics:[Understanding specific types of trauma and harm](/en/learn?tags=understanding-specific-types-of-trauma-and-harm)[Making sense of adult experiences](/en/learn?tags=making-sense-of-adult-experiences) Thank you for sharing your story with us. It takes tremendous courage to reflect so deeply on such a complex and emotionally charged experience. What you've described contains multiple concerning elements of [sexual coercion](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.medicalnewstoday.com%2Farticles%2Fsexual-coercion&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=a206faf2-35ab-40ad-8bef-9eafd188bb51&sig=7ac88bd0c64a2defffc8e4c6bb334edc25791bfdf1a98c681e89bbd0a886338d) - when someone pressures, manipulates, or guilts another person into sexual activity they don't freely choose. The pattern you describe - him begging for sex when you were tired or uncertain, making you feel obligated to engage sexually when you weren't feeling well, and his response of pouting or complaining when you expressed hesitation - represents significant violations of consent. [Consent](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Frainn.org%2Farticles%2Fwhat-is-consent&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=a206faf2-35ab-40ad-8bef-9eafd188bb51&sig=9f587a3402a727e809dcf354bb72827d3de2b67d1904d9e17cf9a4d18d81ae97) should always be enthusiastic, freely given, and can be withdrawn at any time. Feeling pressured or coerced into sexual activities undermines your ability to give true consent. The incident involving penetration while you were asleep is particularly concerning. Meaningful consent cannot be given while unconscious. This represents a serious violation of trust and personal autonomy. It's completely normal to feel confused about these experiences, especially when they involve someone you trusted and cared about. Many survivors experience uncertainty about labeling what happened, questioning their own responses, or wondering if they somehow "allowed" it to happen. The back-and-forth between relief and missing the friendship is an extremely common reaction. Your continued engagement after uncomfortable experiences is not evidence that the initial violations weren't real. Many survivors maintain contact with people who have harmed them for complex reasons - trying to regain a sense of control, attempting to normalize what happened, or simply processing trauma at their own pace. Your shift toward dominating him remotely might have been a subconscious protective mechanism, a way to establish boundaries and safety when you felt vulnerable. Please remember that it's not your fault for "caving" or not explicitly saying no in every instance. Coercion and manipulation can make it extremely difficult to assert boundaries. Being interested in someone sexually never gives them permission to pressure or coerce you. Feeling too exhausted, uncomfortable, or ill to engage sexually are all valid reasons to decline, and a respectful partner would accept this without manipulation. Taking space from this relationship was a form of self-protection. Your feelings matter, your boundaries matter, and your healing journey is valid regardless of his intentions. The fact that you've reached out for support shows tremendous strength and self-awareness. You deserve relationships where your boundaries are respected at all times and where you feel safe and comfortable in all your interactions. Thank you for trusting us with this. You are not alone. Random Question 0 Upvote(s) Upvote(s) [ 0 Comment(s) Comment(s) ](/en/answer/i-21-recently-cut-contact-with-a-close-friend-24-after-realizing-he-may-have-assaulted-me-im-confused-about-what-happened-and-how-much-was-his-fault-versus-mine-we-were-online-friends-before-meeting-i#comments) ### Discard message? 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