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Send it to us 🇰🇼 # How do I cope with feeling like I want a traumatic experience to happen again? \[Image: Dr. Laura\] Answer by **Dr. Laura** PhD Mental Health Nurse & Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner Topics:[Seeking help after trauma](/en/learn/topics/seeking-help-after-trauma) Thank you for sharing this with us. I want you to know that what you're feeling is valid, and you're not alone in experiencing these complex emotions. These feelings you're describing are actually quite common among survivors of sexual violence and trauma, though they're rarely discussed openly. It's not uncommon for survivors to have conflicting feelings, even ones that are confusing or distressing. Sometimes, the mind tries to make sense of trauma in ways that can seem contradictory or puzzling. Your brain and body may be trying to make sense of what happened by replaying or even seeking out similar situations. This can be a way of trying to gain control over an experience where you previously had none. Feeling like you want it to happen again might be linked to a desire to regain control, to rewrite the experience, or to find meaning in it. Sometimes these feelings emerge as part of trauma bonding, where intense emotional experiences become linked with the traumatic event, creating confusing associations. Many survivors experience intrusive thoughts or fantasies about their trauma that can feel wanted or unwanted at different times. This doesn't mean you actually want to be harmed again - rather, it often reflects your mind's attempt to process and integrate what happened. Coping with these emotions can be challenging, but it's important to be gentle with yourself. Working through these complex feelings with a trauma-informed therapist can be particularly helpful. Therapies like [EMDR](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fmy.clevelandclinic.org%2Fhealth%2Ftreatments%2F22641-emdr-therapy&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=8b267946-fc08-4972-b942-97460311643c&sig=87df9eaeae9b98ec14c91eafbe3044f579089321aeebf3357cd4b46ce26ac1ea) (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) or [trauma-focused cognitive behavioral therapy](https://community.ourwave.org/_external/link?url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.psychologytoday.com%2Fus%2Ftherapy-types%2Ftrauma-focused-cognitive-behavior-therapy%3Fmsockid%3D1103576693d9679310b645d892bb66b2&resourceId=non_specific&localeId=en&countryId=us&src=answer&questionId=8b267946-fc08-4972-b942-97460311643c&sig=abf3f04d7318edb77cbce8e8bf077b6e0ad464b9256806437e04607c782604f4) are designed specifically to help process traumatic experiences and the complicated feelings that follow. Consider reaching out to someone you trust, like a close friend or family member. Sharing your feelings can provide relief and help you feel less isolated. Professional support from a counselor or therapist who understands trauma might also be beneficial in helping you navigate these feelings. In the meantime, practicing self-compassion is crucial. Remind yourself that these thoughts don't define you or your healing journey. Grounding techniques like deep breathing, mindfulness practices, or physical activity can help when these thoughts become overwhelming. Connecting with survivor support groups can also provide validation and perspective from others who may have experienced similar feelings. Remember that healing isn't linear, and experiencing these complicated feelings doesn't mean you're moving backward. It's actually part of your mind processing what happened, and with support and compassion, these feelings typically become less intense over time. You deserve compassion, understanding, and care as you work through this. 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